Monday, November 5, 2012

If you never do, you'll never know!

About this time last year, I started hearing advertisements for a local gym that was accepting applicants for an "Extreme Fitness Makeover" and I got excited!  I printed the application and filled it out.  I posted about it on FB for some friends who I knew would also be interested in applying.  And then I never turned my application in.  Yes, I chickened out.  In the meantime, I had quite a few friends who did apply for the challenge and 4 of my friends were chosen!  (3 of whom would never have known about it if I hadn't told them about it!)

I watched my friends lose weight, lose inches, do things they never dreamed their bodies were capable of doing and make wonderful friends in their fellow competitors.  I was sooo proud of them, but damnit, I was also so furious with myself at not having the nerve to actually turn in my own application.  I should have been one of them, I should have been with them, changing my own life!

Fast forward to now...here I sit at my computer, approximately the same weight I was this time last year (and the year before that and the year before that...)  And Rome Athletic Club is doing another EFM.  I have been going back and forth about applying for it yet again.  Why?  Because I'm scared that I won't be able to keep up with them.  Because I'm scared that they will tell me that I can't lose weight unless I eat foods that I cannot stomach.  Because I'm scared that I will fail.  That's it, I'm scared that I will fail.

This past weekend I ran into a friend who not only competed in the EFM but won it (and has lost about 130 pounds in the process!) and she introduced me to the ladies in charge of the competition, telling them that if it wasn't for me she would not have known about the opportunity and that they needed to tell me to get my application turned in.  Seeing how happy and healthy my friend looked convinced me to come home, print the application and fill it out.  I have to write about why I want to be a part of the EFM, and I'm afraid that I am writing so much that they will throw my application out due to the fact that they don't have the time to read it!  After the deadline for applications has past, I will post exactly what my "essay" said.

And even though I was 99.9% sure I was going to turn it in, I got the final push that I needed last night.  How appropriate is it that my final push would come from a saying on a package from a fast food restaurant?!

Check this out:


I mean, seriously, how much more clear can it be? If I am chosen, am I going to be able to keep up?  I don't know.  Am I going to have to eat food that makes me gag?  I don't know.  Am I going to fail?  I don't know.  But like this says:  If you never do, you'll never know.  The only true way for me to fail at this point is not to try!

Even the statement below that one is speaking to me...it says "Live MAS" which means "Live More" and that is something that I need to learn to do. As a fat chick, I don't do a whole lot of living.  If it doesn't involve my couch, my computer, my car or my kids schools, I'm not doing it.  The world is passing me by while I stay safe and sheltered in my comfortable little cocoon.  I am missing so much by being fat and I am so hoping that I get the opportunity to learn how to Live MAS!!!!

Wish me luck ~ they will announce the 12 participants before Christmas!