Saturday, February 28, 2009

Happy Saturday!

I got up this morning EARLY and went to Weight Watchers! YAY ME! I am so proud...I have been trying to make myself do it for weeks. When I was a member before, I weighed in wearing the lightest clothes I could find, took off my jewelry and shoes to weigh and did everything possible to make it seem lighter. This morning, though, I weighed in in jeans and tennis shoes, so that I can wear my normal clothes each week I go. I was shocked at my weight this morning...it was BY FAR the most I have ever weighed, and I am telling myself that all scales are different, and I was wearing more clothes than I usually do...but in reality it doesn't really matter what the starting weight was. It is the last time I will be that weight, and it will show my losses just as well as one that weighed me 20 pounds lighter. So it's all good!

I was really impressed with the WW leader. I had one for years that I really liked, but she was fired a few years ago. I didn't think I would find another one that I liked, but this lady actually seemed more knowledgable, having lost 100 pounds in 2007. The people were super nice and I wasn't shy around them at all...usually I am a shy person in a group setting like that when I know very few people.

I need to go find a ticker to use for my weightloss...when I do I'll post it on here.

Have a great day everyone!

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

trying out a ticker...

I am going to put up a ticker countdown to the Cave Spring Road Race...the 5k I plan to run in. I am going to use coolrunning.com's "Couch to 5K in 5 weeks" and see how it goes.

Monday, February 23, 2009

I'm baaaaack!

Well, I made it through my weekend away. Did I make it to the workout room? No. Did I overeat while gone? No. Not that one makes up for the other, but it's definitely better than not working AND overeating. :)

I shared a room with my sister during my little weekend away, and yesterday we started talking about running. Now, I am a fat chick and fat chicks do NOT run...but it is something I have always, always, always wanted to do. A 5K has always been a dream of mine, but not a realistic one in the past. Now I find out that my sister also wants to do a 5k...now she isn't a fat chick at all, but she IS a relatively round chick, being 8 months pregnant right now. We both have some training to do, but we decided to do a 5K together...sometime after the baby is born and when I am not quite as fat a chick as I currently am.

I got online yesterday and looked for local 5K's and found one I have never heard of before...the Cave Spring Road Race. It takes place on June 13th, which is 4 months away. I don't know if that is enough time to train to be ready for it, but we are dang well gonna try! I may not be able to run the whole thing, but I firmly believe that I can get through it even if she has to drag me over the finish line. (This will be much easier for her to do if I am able to drop a few pounds before then, LOL...) I am so excited to think that I have a goal to work towards...we are going to go ahead and sign up and pay our money too, so that we can't back out.

I plan to go to my first WW meeting Saturday morning and I am so excited I can hardly wait! In four months I could lose around 30 pounds or so if I really put my mind to it, especially when mixed in with walking/running/training to run the 5K.

I can't imagine how it would feel to actually finish a 5K and cross the finish line...the thought is so foreign to me...I don't know what would feel better...finishing a 5K or accomplishing a goal I have made for myself.

I really feel like I can do it this time!

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Heading out of town for the weekend...

I am going to be in Atlanta from Friday to Sunday...eating from a Starbucks and a hotel restaurant. I am not able to plan my meals in advance, so I am just going to make the best choices I can possibly make. The hotel does have a gym, and I plan to hit the treadmill and elliptical while we are gone.

My plan is to join WW next week. I have heard a lot of good things about Thrive Weightloss and would like to try it, but I am not able to afford it.

Have you tried WW? Have you tried Thrive? What did you think? Like I said earlier, I have lost 46lbs on WW before and know it works...but what was your experience?

100 Reasons to Lose 100 Pounds (69-30)

100 Reasons to Lose 100 Pounds

69. To be able to cross my legs comfortably.
68. To swing in a swing at a playground without the sides digging into my legs.
67. To wear boots that will zip over my calves.
66. To get a haircut without worrying if it will make my face look even fatter.
65. To wear a bathing suit.
64. To be able to tie my shoes without propping my foot up on something.
63. To meet someone new without being wary that they are thinking how disgusting I am.
62. To have enough energy to keep up with my kids
61. Being able to ride a roller coaster without worrying if the bar will fit.
60. To run in a race.
59. To see the shock on peoples’ faces when they see me after losing weight.
58. Being able to keep up with other people.
57. No more stares from strangers (or random comments)
56. Feeling brave enough to speak in front of people.
55. Go to an indoor rock climbing wall and fit in the harness thingy they strap to you .
54. So I can tuck in a shirt.
53. I want to feel stronger.
52. To give my family a fighting chance of not having the same health problems as me.
51. To sleep better.
50. Being able to sit on my husbands lap.
49. Going for a run on a fall morning.
48. So I can wear a button up shirt without worrying about gaps.
47. So people won’t ask me when my baby is due.
46. Seat belts will fit properly.
45. Movie theater seats will be more comfortable.
44. To not feel like thin/healthy people are better than me.
43. So I can ride a bike again.
42. Feeling comfortable speaking to people with out having to think about what they think about me.
41. Not being so hard to move.
40. Not being called “heavy set” or “large”
39. So I can wear a sleeveless shirt.
38. So I don’t have to struggle to get up out of the floor.
37. To show my kids how to eat healthy.
36. To show my kids that playing outside is more fun than playing on the Xbox.
35. Being confident to go after things I really want in life.
34. To help my kids grow up never having to know what it feels like to be fat.
33. Learning to control my emotions rather than eat them.
32. To shop and cook healthier.
31. So my hubby’s clothes are soooo big there is no way I can wear them.
30. So I don’t sweat and look like I’ve been swimming just from walking to the mailbox.

To be continued....

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

100 Reasons to Lose 100 Pounds (79-70)

100 Reasons to Lose 100 Pounds (79-70)

79. I want to feel good about myself when I look in the mirror.

78. I want a regular bath towel to wrap around me comfortably.

77. I want to put on sweats and look cute instead of like nothing else would fit.

76. I want to be able to walk more than a block without getting winded.

75. I want to fit more comfortably behind the steering wheel. My legs are short so I have to be pulled way up!

74. So I can fit behind the desks in my kids' classroom. (right, Christina? LOL!)

73. So I can comfortably paint my toe nails.

72. So I can wrestle with my sons and not worry about squishing them!

71. I want to be able to slide on the enclosed slides on playgrounds.

70. So I can turn cartwheels again.

To be continued...

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

100 Reasons to Lose 100 Pounds (89-80)

100 Reasons to Lose 100 Pounds


89. So I never have to hear the term "morbidly obese" pertaining to myself.


88. So my clothes aren't so big they could double as a tent.


87. So I don't get diabetes.


86. I don't want to be the fattest person in my family anymore.


85. I want to buy clothes in a regular store.


84. I want to learn Victoria's Secret!


83. I want to like my outside as much as I like my inside.


82. So I will want to have my picture taken.


81. So people will want to take my picture.


80. To not worry if my shirt shows a bit of my stomach.


To be continued...



100 Reasons to Lose 100 Pounds (100-90)

100 Reasons to Lose 100 Pounds
100. I want to know what I look like with only one chin.
99. To not have to worry about whether I will fit in a booth at a restaurant.
98. So that I don't embarrass my children. School is hard enough without having a fat mom.
97. To wear low waisted jeans.
96. To go jogging with my boys.
95. So I never have to step foot in Lane Bryant again.
94. So my daughter will want to look like me.
93. So I never have to hear "you have such a pretty face..." again.
92. So no one will recognize me at my next high school reunion.
91. To not be the token fat chick in any given situation.
90. Because I want to live to see my grandchildren and great-grandchildren.
To be continued...

Monday, February 16, 2009

About me...

I am a 32 year old mother of three. I have been married to the love of my life for 13 years this year. I am a stay at home mom (SAHM). I have issues keeping a clean house. I have great eyes and hair.

And I am a fat chick.

Of everything I am, good and bad, being a fat chick is what people see when they look at me. They don't see that I am a wonderful mother, or that I could be a great friend to them...they see that I am a fat chick. And I am ready for that to change.

My husband and I have both needed to lose weight for a long time, but a few months ago during routine testing, my husband was diagnosed with high blood pressure, high cholesterol and off the charts triglycerides (over 600 ~ normal is below 200.) Weight loss used to be just a vanity issue, but now it is a health issue. It is no longer an option, but a necessity.

Seven years ago, I joined Weight Watchers and lost 46 pounds...then something happened and in the blink of an eye I had gained back 60 pounds. So here I sit now, needing to lose over 100 pounds to be even close to my ideal weight. DH (dear husband) needs to lose 80-90 pounds. I plan to re-join WW and bring what I learn back home to him.

I plan to use this blog for accountability...to talk about my feelings as I struggle with losing, then maintaining my weight, to share and review recipes and healthier choices at local restaurants.

Please feel free to share recipes or comment...I have a long journey ahead of me!