Wednesday, December 30, 2009

New Year = New Me

OK, I am feeling motivated and ready to get the ball rolling again. Yes, I know, me and every one else in the world, right? There is just something about the beginning of a new year...the possibilities are endless!

What is my plan?

* back on Thrive! I am going to a meeting tomorrow morning. My sister (deathmetalmommy) is also going to join, which is going to help me out a bunch!

* I am going to do the Cave Spring 5k again this year. My goal is to beat my last years time by 15 minutes!

* I am going to start going to the YMCA 3-4 times a week.

* I plan to be down a minimum of 40 pounds by the 5k. I will put a ticker on my blog to show my progress there.

* I have been invited to join a "biggest loser" competition here in Rome. It's a friend of mine and her friends and family...costs $25 a person, lasts 6 months, and the biggest loser gets the pot. I think this will be an amazing boost of motivation!

So I know it's been a long time since I posted, but I'm back. And feeling good. :)


Tuesday, October 6, 2009

I have a confession to make.

Last week, I had more blow it days than perfect days. And that hurt to admit! I have lots of excuses for why we ate out so much last week and why neither I nor Sam ordered anything even remotely Thrive approved, but I won't bore you with any of them. I must say that I am beyond shocked at how quickly those bad habits can re-emerge! For 8 weeks we did great...rarely eating out, following Thrive religiously with very few blow it days. Then last week, life happened, and instead of using what we learned with Thrive to get through it, we just reverted back to our bad habits. You would think that after the first day of eating bad, when the heartburn set in, when the gas set in, when the stomach upset set in, we would have got a clue and started eating right. But no, it turned into another day of eating junk, followed by heartburn and all the rest. We talked about it every night, how miserable we were, how did we eat like that every day in our "past life", and yet we woke up and did it again the next day....and the next...and the next.

I am proud to say that I have now had 2 perfect days and am finally back in EFB. I feel 100% better, and hope that by writing this here, I can look back on it when I am tempted to blow it again and see that it really wasn't worth it. I am afraid to step on the scale and have decided to give it a week so that I don't fall over in shock when I see the number, LOL!

So to you Thrivers out there who may be tempted...it ain't worth it. The stomach upset alone is enough to make you wonder how on earth you lived this long eating food that bad for you, LOL...

As for me...I will just subtract these bad days from my allowed blow it days and move forward.

Friday, September 25, 2009

Drumroll, please!

Today was my final 7 week WI and I lost 2 more pounds! That makes a total of 16.2 pounds from Thrive in just 7 weeks! Added to what I lost on WW I am now down 35.2 pounds! That's a whole lotta weight! That's like my daughter holding a 5 pound bag of taters, LOL! I also lost about 14 inches...nearly 4 in my waist and 4 in my hips, alone! It's amazing. Almost 2 whole pants sizes.

I also have to give props to my wonderful husband, Sam. He started Thrive when I did and he is now down 40 pounds. Yes, folks, 40 pounds! He is one of my "why's"...he had high blood pressure, cholesterol, triglycerides (over 600!), 2 parents with diabetes and he was over 300 pounds. Pretty much all that has cleared up now! Neither of us suffer from heartburn or acid reflux, when it used to be a nightly thing.

I can honestly say that Thrive has not only changed our lives...it has SAVED our lives! It feels so good knowing that we are getting healthier as each day goes by. To know that the food we put in our mouths is FUEL for our bodies...instead of just insulin-inducing sugar-filled junk!

Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend...I know I will!

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

As I sit here watching "The Biggest Loser" (one of my all-time favorite shows!), thinking about how inspirational these people are, I realized that working for Thrive gives me the opportunity to be just as inspirational to people I meet here in Rome! WOW! That is such a blessing! The thought that people are watching me change my life and it is making them want to change theirs just blows my mind! OK, maybe no one is feeling like that yet, but they will!

I have been in training for about a week and a half and so much more is starting to make sense to me! I lost 19 pounds with WW, but my clothes didn't get any loser...then I started Thrive and have lost 14.4 pounds and have lost at least one pants size, almost two. This is because I did not change my eating habits with WW and it caused my body to burn muscle...with Thrive I have trained my body to burn body fat and THAT is what is making my clothes fit better! It's amazing!

I have been dragging my feet and having some blow it days...I think it's time to put it into overdrive and get this weight off! I am so ready to start looking and feeling even better!

Hope you have a wonderful day...I know I am!

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Good morning all!

Wow, what a rough few days! Between the stomach virus that ravaged its way through my family, my 2 year old daughter slicing her foot and ending up in the ER needing stitches Wednesday night and ending up in the ER myself last night, I must say that this is not a week I particularly care to repeat!

That said, though, I went to Thrive yesterday and THAT went great! :) First of all, I had my WI and for my weeks 3&4 together I lost 5.4 pounds! YAY ME! That brings me up 11.2 pounds lost in my first 4 weeks of Thrive and added to the weight I already lost with WW I have now lost 30.2 pounds! WOW! With this WI I not only topped 30 pounds lost, but I also blew my first 10% loss out of the water! I am beyond thrilled. At some point soon, I hope to be able to see a difference in my body...but it will come! Depending on how much weight I end up deciding to lose, I am between 1/4 and 1/3 of the way there!

I have also been given a WONDERFUL opportunity to help people that are in the same situation that I am currently in, and who are where I was before I found Thrive, and I am beyond excited at the thought of being able to help people! I know a lot of people read my blog, and this way I hope that my story will help show people that YOU CAN DO IT!

My Thriving FB Buddy JR (whose name I won't post cause I didn't ask her permission, LOL!) and I have decided to start our own personal "challenge" that is going to last for the next month. She has an event to attend out of state on September 26 and that is my mother's birthday and the day that I have a "blow it" actually planned. Between now and then our challenge is to have no blow it days and for me to get in all my water. I am excited about it and hope that anyone who reads this and wants to join in with us, contact me! I am going to put our stats here on my blog if she will agree to it, so that I can look back on it when I feel the need. I think this is just what I need to kick start my weight loss and get it where it should (could?) be!

Enough for now...and my thought for today is that today I will choose to eat to live, not live to eat!

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Where am I now?

I just realized that it's been a while since I updated my blog, and since I'm at home sick today, it's as good a time as any I guess.

I am still doing Thrive and enjoying it. My first week I lost 5 pounds, but my second week, I only lost .8...this might be why I haven't been updating...I was so very disappointed. If I were to guess, I would assume that I had such a bad loss because I haven't been getting my water in. I have had a terrible cold and sore throat and drinking just hasn't been at the top of my list of fun things to do.

I didn't make it to WI last week because, well, it just didn't happen. I had a lot of things going on and the time wasn't there...and if I'm being absolutely honest with myself, it's also because my scale wasn't showing any kind of a loss for my 3rd week on Thrive, and I couldn't bear that to be my official 3rd WI.

I've had a great Thrive week, even getting in my water, then woke up with a stomach virus. I shouldn't complain, because I'm the 4th person in my household to have it this week, but still...this is my blog and I wanna complain and whine. So today I haven't been able to eat hardly at all...and what I have eaten is not Thrive-approved. It stinks to have a blow it day because I'm sick and could only think of a certain cereal to eat, but it is what it is. I have to get better before I can worry about my eating.

I just pray for a loss this week...it is a 2 week loss, and I don't know how I will handle it if I lose another .8! I know I shouldn't focus on the numbers, but on the fact that I feel so much better now than I did...but I can't help it.

Crossing my fingers for a decent loss!

Saturday, August 8, 2009

100 Reasons to Lose 100 Pounds

I am going to re-post my original 100 Reasons to Lose 100 Pounds...I have some new followers who may not have seen it, and besides, it's always good to look at your "why" again!

100 Reasons to Lose 100 Pounds

100. I want to know what I look like with only one chin.
99. To not have to worry about whether I will fit in a booth at a restaurant.
98. So that I don't embarrass my children. School is hard enough without having a fat mom.
97. To wear low waisted jeans.
96. To go jogging with my boys.
95. So I never have to step foot in Lane Bryant again.
94. So my daughter will want to look like me.
93. So I never have to hear "you have such a pretty face..." again.
92. So no one will recognize me at my next high school reunion.
91. To not be the token fat chick in any given situation.
90. Because I want to live to see my grandchildren and great-grandchildren.
89. So I never have to hear the term "morbidly obese" pertaining to myself.
88. So my clothes aren't so big they could double as a tent.
87. So I don't get diabetes.
86. I don't want to be the fattest person in my family anymore.
85. I want to buy clothes in a regular store.
84. I want to learn Victoria's Secret!
83. I want to like my outside as much as I like my inside.
82. So I will want to have my picture taken.
81. So people will want to take my picture.
80. To not worry if my shirt shows a bit of my stomach.
79. I want to feel good about myself when I look in the mirror.
78. I want a regular bath towel to wrap around me comfortably.
77. I want to put on sweats and look cute instead of like nothing else would fit.
76. I want to be able to walk more than a block without getting winded.
75. I want to fit more comfortably behind the steering wheel. My legs are short so I have to be pulled way up!
74. So I can fit behind the desks in my kids' classroom. (right, Christina? LOL!)
73. So I can comfortably paint my toe nails.
72. So I can wrestle with my sons and not worry about squishing them!
71. I want to be able to slide on the enclosed slides on playgrounds.
70. So I can turn cartwheels again.
69. To be able to cross my legs comfortably.
68. To swing in a swing at a playground without the sides digging into my legs.
67. To wear boots that will zip over my calves.
66. To get a haircut without worrying if it will make my face look even fatter.
65. To wear a bathing suit.
64. To be able to tie my shoes without propping my foot up on something.
63. To meet someone new without being wary that they are thinking how disgusting I am.
62. To have enough energy to keep up with my kids
61. Being able to ride a roller coaster without worrying if the bar will fit.
60. To run in a race.
59. To see the shock on peoples’ faces when they see me after losing weight.
58. Being able to keep up with other people.
57. No more stares from strangers (or random comments)
56. Feeling brave enough to speak in front of people.
55. Go to an indoor rock climbing wall and fit in the harness thingy they strap to you .
54. So I can tuck in a shirt.
53. I want to feel stronger.
52. To give my family a fighting chance of not having the same health problems as me.
51. To sleep better.
50. Being able to sit on my husbands lap.
49. Going for a run on a fall morning.
48. So I can wear a button up shirt without worrying about gaps.
47. So people won’t ask me when my baby is due.
46. Seat belts will fit properly.
45. Movie theater seats will be more comfortable.
44. To not feel like thin/healthy people are better than me.
43. So I can ride a bike again.
42. Feeling comfortable speaking to people with out having to think about what they think about me.
41. Not being so hard to move.
40. Not being called “heavy set” or “large”
39. So I can wear a sleeveless shirt.
38. So I don’t have to struggle to get up out of the floor.
37. To show my kids how to eat healthy.
36. To show my kids that playing outside is more fun than playing on the Xbox.
35. Being confident to go after things I really want in life.
34. To help my kids grow up never having to know what it feels like to be fat.
33. Learning to control my emotions rather than eat them.
32. To shop and cook healthier.
31. So my hubby’s clothes are soooo big there is no way I can wear them.
30. So I don’t sweat and look like I’ve been swimming just from walking to the mailbox.
29. So that the floor in my mothers hall doesn't creak so loudly when I walk down it.
28. So that when we eat at a restaurant, the server doesn't automatically look at me and say "and what are we having for dessert?"
27. I want to be able to get a massage without being self-conscious.
26. So I can get a pedicure or manicure without being afraid that the technicians are talking about how big I am in their native language.
25. So that I can become a lifetime WW member and not have to pay for meetings anymore!
24. To step on the scale in the doctors office and not see them move the bar over to "200" automatically.
23. To have the energy to keep my house clean instead of just sitting on the couch.
22. So that I can wear the same clothes from one winter season to the next winter season.
21. To get up from the floor without grunting and grabbing a hold of something to pull myself up.
20. To determine that I do, in fact, have collarbones in there somewhere.
19. So that the inside thighs of blue jeans don't wear out before the rest of the jeans.
18. To be able to talk about wanting to run a 5K and not have people look at me the way they currently do.
17. So that the gowns at the hospital and doctors office fit me...and I only have to wear one!
16. To finally wear shorts again.
15. So I can shop in Old Navy stores instead of just online, which is the only place to buy their "plus" sized clothes.
14. To no longer have multiple "X's" on my clothing tags.
13. To not weigh the same as a 6'5 offensive lineman.
12. So that I don't weigh more than the men in my family...and they are NOT small men.
11. To jump on my husbands back without fearing I will break it.
10. So I don't have to constantly hold my stomach in so it doesn't stick out quite as far over my pants.
9. I don't want to feel like my family talks about my weight when I'm not around.
8. To wear cute, sexy Halloween costumes...when you are fat, you can be a witch or a cow.
7. So that when I sit down I don't automatically cross my arms and rest them on my stomach.
6. To be able to stand up and look straight down to see my toes or the numbers on the scale.
5. I want to feel comfortable to join a class (aerobics, belly dancing, etc).
4. I want to have awesome "before" and "after" pictures.
3. I want to grow old with my husband.
2. I want to show other overweight people that you CAN lose the weight...if I can do it anyone can!
1. For once in my life, I want to be a HOT CHICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1st Thrive Weigh-In

I have officially completed my first week as a member of Thrive Weightloss...and I lost 5 POUNDS!!! I am beyond thrilled! I have now lost 24 pounds since April. I won't mention how many more to go, cause I'm not focusing on that right now. But I am one pound shy of having lost 10% of my body weight! And I'm a pretty damn fat chick, so that's a good bit of weight, y'all! :)

What have I learned after a week on Thrive?

(1) If you eat enough protein, it keeps you from getting hungry between meals.
(2) I don't really NEED a coke to get me through the day.
(3) If you follow the program, you lose weight in your stomach and you can, indeed, feel a difference in your clothes in just a weeks time. (WOW!)
(4) I truly CAN live without white bread, butter and white sugar. I have loved ON those things for so long I didn't think I could do without them...but I CAN!
(5) It's ok to have a "blow-it" day every so often.
(6) I feel better today than I have in a long time.
(7) Since I am eating better, I know I am getting healthier.
(8) I have a "pretty face" now andI'm gonna be a freakin knockout in a few months, LOL!!!

My struggle seems to be getting my water in every day. I chose to "blow it" today and will start Thriving again tomorrow...the deal I made with myself is that if I chose to "blow it" today, I would make sure to get my water in every day this week. I can do that. :)

Hope everyone is having a great day...I know I am!

J

Thursday, August 6, 2009

A shameless plug...

If you enjoy sarcastic humor at its best, check out my new link to the right...Death Metal Mommy Yodels the Blues. She is hilarious!

(and yes, she is my sister and I am "The Chicken" mentioned in her blogs.)

Monday, August 3, 2009

Thrive: 2nd Day

I am on my 2nd day of Thrive and feel like I've been hit by a bus! Mom said I'm probably in withdrawal from sugar and white flour...she's probably right. That's been the basis of my diet my entire life. I've got a lingering headache and am just exhausted...but it should pass by the end of the week.

Eating like this is definitely going to take some getting used to. I am supposed to have a lean protein and a fibrous carb for breakfast...like egg beaters and double fiber wheat toast or something to that effect...but I don't like breakfast! So this is the 2nd day in a row that I've had a Thrive-approved protein bar. They are yummy! It might slow down my losses somewhat, but I'd rather do that than force down eggs and yak them right back up, LOL!

The first week on Thrive you are supposed to eat mainly lean proteins and fibrous carbs. Switching to chicken from mainly red meat has been definitely different. I think that once we get some meal combinations down, this will fall into place. Tonight we are having bbq chicken, green beans and salad with romaine, spinach and brocolli. I *think* that is acceptable.

Hubby is doing this with me and seems to think that he is starving to death. I'm trying to make him understand that it's not that he's starving, it's that his body is trying to get used to eating smaller portions of healthier food. When you're used to eating a big mac meal with large fries and a large coke, chased with a crispy chicken sandwich, yes, you may feel a little different when you finish 2 chicken wraps on high fiber tortillas!

I would so love to see a good loss this week, but as my mother pointed out, I have been doing WW for a few weeks so this is not technically my first week of trying to lose weight, so I probably can't expect a 5 pounds weightloss like so many have their first week on Thrive. Ah well, I can still hope!

Saturday, August 1, 2009

A change.

As anyone who reads my blog will know, I have greatly struggled the past few weeks of Weight Watchers. It has gotten so that my favorite thing about WW has become my downfall. I always thought that WW was great because I could eat anything, as long as I had the points for it. However, it had become with me that WW was great because I could eat anything. Period. So when my pre-paid 10 week membership was up, I did not renew it. This makes me sad because I have made great friends at WW...friends that I don't want to lose...but I also can't afford to keep attending meetings when I'm not losing weight.

A few weeks ago, I had someone contact me via Facebook. She has read my blog and saw my WW struggles. She told me that she is a Thrive instructor. For those who don't live around NWGA, Thrive is a weight loss/lifestyle change that Travis Martin (a local man) has come up with. (www.thriveweightloss.com) There are people all over the area losing lots of weight and getting healthy. My mother is one of those. Let me tell you a bit about my mother...for as long as I can remember, she has been trying one diet or another. She may do Atkins, she may do Nutri-System, she may try WW, she may be a vegetarian. But she just could not get the weight off. After talking about trying Thrive, she bit the bullet at the end of April and joined. Now after 3 months, she has lost 22 pounds and gone from a size 20 to a size 14/16. She looks wonderful and says that she feels great.

After much soul searching, I decided to join Thrive. I had my first meeting last night and did my 2+ hour grocery tour today. I have already learned a lot, and will officially start tomorrow. One of the best things about this is that my husband has also said that he wants to do this with me. He needs it even more than I do, which makes it worth the money to learn the program.

So I am still around, and will be updating you on my Thrive progress. :)

Saturday, July 18, 2009

OK, feeling a little better...

I weighed at my mother's house earlier today and was down a little over 4 pounds. Her scale is usually right on with my WW scale. By her scale I was down 3 pounds on Thursday, so this is right on track. I'm thinking that there may have been a problem with the scale at WW...don't know what, but it could be. And if it makes me feel better, then I will believe it! :) It doesn't really matter, cause it should show at next week's WI, which I am already looking forward to.

So I'm feeling a bit better and not quite as down on myself.

I'm still here...

Just trying to deal with some frustration and disappointment. In the past 2 weeks I have managed to lose .8 pounds. Yes, that is the total of 2 weeks. Actually it's worse than that...I am still .2 ABOVE my lowest weight of a month ago. So technically it's as if this past month didn't even happen, weight-wise, with the exception of the money I'm out. Last week I was glad to have lost anything...it wasn't a great week. This week, however, was great. Sun, Mon, Tue, Wed, Thur and Fri absolutely within points and good choices made. And another lousy .4 pounds. Please don't respond to me that any loss is a good loss...I know all of that. But when you weigh as much as I do, .4 is NOTHING...especially after a great week. Everyone else around me is losing 2 to 3 pounds a week like it's NOTHING and I am struggling to get back to where I was a month ago.

I hate when I start feeling like this. Sometimes I swear that if my insurance covered gastric bypass I'd make an appointment today. :(

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Dessert Time ~ sharing a few of my favorite recipes!

Anyone who knows me knows that I am "the" dessert queen! I figured that I would share a few of my favorite WW sweet recipes...they are ones that I've seen around for years, so anyone who has done WW before will probably have them. Others may not, and it is for them that I am posting them!

Soo...without further ado, here are a few of my favorite re-vamped sweet recipes that help me through the times when I absolutely *have* to have something sweet!



Diet Coke Cake
points depend on your cake mix...most are 4pts for 1/12 of recipe.

1 cake mix
1 can diet drink
1 egg white or 1/4c egg substitute

Mix the cake mix, diet drink and egg together with electric mixer. Pour into Pam-sprayed cake pan (9x13, cupcakes, bundt). Cook at 325 until done. My 9x13 took only 20 minutes. You will have to watch it closely the first time you make it...it cookes much quicker than a regular cake. Allow to cool completely before cutting. You can frost with ff cool whip if you like, or a light glaze of powdered sugar and water.



Possible combinations:

chocolate cake and Diet Coke or Diet Dr. Pepper
yellow cake and Diet Sierra Mist or Diet Peach Diet Rite
orange cake and Diet Sierra Mist
strawberry cake and Diet Strawberry Diet Rite

The possibilities are endless!





Ice Cream Sandwiches
1 point each


1 whole reduced fat graham cracker, broken into 2 pieces
2 tbsp fat free cool whip

Sandwich the cool whip between the graham crackers. Wrap in saran wrap and place in the freezer.


Crustless Strawberry Pie
6 servings, 1 point each



4 cups sliced strawberries
2 cups water
1 small box (4 servings) Jell-O sugar free cook and serve pudding
1 small box (4 servings) sugar-free strawberry Jell-O

Mix water and pudding in large bowl.
Place in microwave for about 6 minutes until mixture comes to a bowl, stirring with wire whisk after 3 minutes.
Remove and add jello, set aside to cool. Place sliced strawberries in a 9" pie dish. Pour cooled pudding mixture over top of strawberries. Refrigerate until firm - about two hours. Cut into 6 slices. Top each slice with 2 Tbsp. fat free cool whip.



Chocolate Hazelnut Biscotti
1 point each, makes 4 1/2 dozen


2 cups all purpose flour
1 cup granulated sugar
1/3 cup unsweetened cocoa powder
1 teaspoon baking soda
1/2 teaspoon salt
1/4 cup mini semisweet chocolate chips
2 large eggs
2 large egg whites
2 teaspoons grated orange peel
1 teaspoon vanilla or chocolate extract
1 teaspoon instant coffee powder
1/2 cup toasted and skinned hazelnuts

Glaze:

1 large egg white beaten with 1 teaspoon water

Preheat oven to 350º.

Lightly coat large baking sheet with cooking spray.
In large bowl, whisk together flour, sugar, cocoa powder, baking soda, and salt, until blended. Stir in chocolate chips.
In a medium bowl, whisk together whole eggs, egg whites, zest, extract, and coffee powder, until powder dissolves. Add to flour mixture along with nuts. With wooden spoon, work wet ingredients into dry ingredients until combined (dough will be sticky).
Divide dough in half.
With lightly floured hands and on lightly floured surface, roll one half of dough into 14 inch long rope, then transfer to prepared baking sheet.
Flatten rope to 1 3/4 inch width.
Roll remaining dough into another 14 inch rope, place 3 to 4 inches away from first rope, and then flatten.
Brush ropes with glaze.
Bake in 350º oven until firm to the touch, 24 to 26 minutes.
Remove from oven and let cool 2 minutes on baking sheet. Leave oven on. Slide loaves onto cutting board.
With serrated knife, cut loaves diagonally into 1/2 inch thick slices.
Discard ends.
Place slices, cut sides down, back on baking sheet (they can touch).
Bake until dry, another 15 minutes, turning biscotti over after 7 minutes.
Let cool completely on wire rack.
Store in airtight container at room temperature for up to several days.

It's me. :)

First of all, I want to thank everyone for the emails and PM's I got about my last post...I appreciate it more than you know. I think I just need to grow a thicker skin...but when someone calls your child a brat, it's hard to just sit back and laugh.

As most can tell, I have had a rough few weeks...I am proud to say that I am back on track though. :) I went to my WW meeting last Saturday but didn't weigh in...it was easier to not know how much I gained this time, LOL...I am working on my 3rd day eating right and am definitely feeling better. I am fighting the cravings, which is not easy, but I'm doing it. I am going to WI this Saturday...I still expect a gain, but it won't be nearly as bad as it woulda been had I weighed in last week.

When I started WW the first time WAAAAAAY back when, I read about the BCB (BootCampBuddies)...it was a WW support group that was militant on their plans...24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 365 days a year. No excuses. It was too much for me back then...but after lurking and reading for a while I decided yesterday to join them. I think that's the kind of thing I need...a kick in the butt when I mess up instead of "oh, you can start again tomorrow, it's ok"...so we'll see how that works.

I am going to get dh to take some "before" pics of me...they won't see the light of day until I get a good one to compare to, but at least they can sit in my camera.

Hope everyone has a great day!!!

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Sad. :(

This has nothing to do with weight loss, but I needed to "talk" something out.

I hope that everyone who reads this knows that anything you type on the internet has the possibility of being read by everyone in the world, including the person/people that you wrote it about. In this day and age, I don't understand WHY someone would post a blog or story about someone online and assume that the person it was about won't see it/read it.

I just ran upon something that someone very close to me wrote about the way I raise my children, and I feel like someone punched me in the stomach. Fine, you don't agree with the way I do things, that's your prerogative...but that doesn't give you the right to make me out to be a bad mother. There are plenty of things I can say about plenty of mothers that I don't agree with (including the person who criticized me), but I won't do that, because it's none of my business. I know I'm not perfect and feel that unless you are, you have no right talking about the way I do things. I wish this person felt the same way, because I am very hurt and feel betrayed by someone I thought I could trust.

Struggle, Struggle, Struggle

I'm at that point. The one where I always give up and go back to eating like I was and gain back 150% of the weight I already lost. You would think that with doing a 5K I would be eating really well and be working toward my next goal.

I'm not.

I have been eating crap again, but am not going to keep going. I've said all along that this is the time I would get this weight off for good and I'll be damned if I'm gonna go back on that.

It's going to be back to basics for me.

(1) Drink water. Lots of water. Nothing but water.
(2) Figure points for favorite recipes.
(3) JOURNAL JOURNAL JOURNAL!!!!

Not journaling has been my problem this time around. As long as I've been doing WW I should have lost twice what I have, but I have only been doing it half-assed. If I seriously get into it and try, I could lose a lot more than I currently have been.

I have a pair of pants I want to fit into as a short term goal. I am going to take a pic of me (attempting to) wear them today, and again every few weeks until they fit...then will find something else to focus on. Once they fit I will post pics, and not before, LOL!

I am getting up and going to WW Saturday morning to get more motivation and get these pounds moving again.

:)

Saturday, June 13, 2009

This Fat Chick did a 5K!

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That's right, I managed to drag myself 3.1 miles. I wondered several times if I was going to make it, but I just kept on keeping on and finished! I was one of the last 5 to finish, but you know what, it didn't matter! I FREAKIN FINISHED IT! My sister (DeathMetalMommy ~ her blog is linked to the right) finished around 45 minutes...my mother was about 50 minutes, and I brought up the rear at one hour and some odd seconds.

A friend of mine was the paramedic riding along with the racers/walkers/crawlers/limpers...he kept checking in with me. I think they were more worried about the fat chick making it than the 92 year old man who was behind me, LOL...to be honest, though, so was I!! A group of about 9 friends from WW showed up and walked together...they were all much faster than I was, but wonderful people that they are, they circled back around to where I was after they finished and walked me in to the finish line. It felt so good...though I think most of that was that it was OVER, LOL!

I am definitely going to keep doing these...I felt such a sense of accomplishment afterward, and I am so proud of myself.

Some of the girls are talking about doing the Clocktower Run in August. We'll see about that!!!

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Is that ME?

I caught a glimpse yesterday of a different me...not the lumpy, dumpy, unattractive person I have felt like for so long, but like the beautiful, self-confident person I am becoming.

When I look in the mirror, I am always prettier than I am in pictures. That's just how it works...I don't know what a camera does to me, but it definitely makes me unattractive, LOL! Yesterday though, as I put my makeup on, I realized that, while I still have a LONG way to go, my face is thinner. Instead of all the chins and fat, I saw my big blue eyes and a hint of cheekbones. It was a bit of a shock and made me put down the makeup brush and look at myself.

My face isn't the only change...I also noticed this week that I am getting my shape back...a shape other than round blob! My waist is smaller and I am taking on more of an hourglass shape. For "normal" people, this is no big deal and probably seems a bit stupid, but for people who are overweight or obese, you know this is a huge thing.

It's amazing to me that I can see these difference with only 19 pounds gone...what will another 19 pounds gone bring???

Life is good.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

It's gonna be a good week, tater...

drum roll please....

daddaddadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadada

I lost 3 pounds this week! YAY ME! This puts me at 19.4 pounds lost. It has taken me a while to lose it, but hopefully that means I will be more likely to keep it off. This is the first week that I really feel that I am losing weight. It feels really good.
:)

We are down to less than 2 weeks until the 5K...again I am just hoping I can finish it! I don't walk fast, and can't run much...so I may end up walking alone, but I guess that's ok too. I don't want to slow down the group that is walking with me.

Next week I plan to get my 20 pound star...I am not going to be able to hit the 25 pound goal by the race that I had set for myself, but I will come pretty close I think.

I am already planning to sign up for the 1st Annual Turkey Trot in Rome, GA for this November. I plan to be 50 pounds down and wearing a L shirt by then. Definitely do-able...30 pounds in 5 months. :)

Here's to a great week, all around!

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Update on me. :)

I just realized that I never came in and reported how my WI went last week. After how upset I was over my eating, I somehow managed a .2 loss! Yes, a loss. I can only figure it one way...the previous week I was up when I should've been down. That good week must've caught up with the bad week and turned it around for me.

This has been a really good week, and I am feeling really good. Walked Mon and Tue so far, hoping to walk tonight too. I am beginning to doubt whether I can make my 5K or not...I am struggling to keep up with my mother when we walk and can barely make it 2 miles, and THAT takes 40 minutes! I dread being the last person to cross the finish line at the race...but I guess finishing last is still finishing, right?

Friday, May 15, 2009

I'm going to own it.

I have had a crap week. I have already gone into this. My plan has been to go to WW in the morning and use a "no weigh in" pass. Get back on track and weigh next week. I have thought long and hard about it and finally decided that I HAVE to get up on that scale in the morning. I have to see what damage I caused this week. Otherwise I'm afraid it might be too easy for me to decide that I didn't do *that* bad this week, and start next week the same way. This way, I know what I did and how it effects me.

I chose to eat. I chose to eat crap. I have to own that.

Just hoping it's not too bad!

Still struggling...but still here!

I swear this has been the week from hell for me! I have eaten crap every single day. But you know why I have eaten crap? Because I BOUGHT crap! I am obviously not at the point that I can have so-called "treats" in my house and resist them. I am going to have to get back to basics and just push forward.

I am going to go to my WW meeting tomorrow, though I am not going to weigh-in. I need the motivation that my wonderful leader offers, without the self-disgust that will come with a gain that I know I caused and could have prevented.

Gotta go to the store and get apples and oranges and better for me stuff later today.

It's a great day to start again!

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

What am I doing?!

Okay, I am at that point. You know the one...it's where you decide that the weight is coming off so slowly and it's okay to go ahead and eat crap. Why on earth would anyone with a lick of sense make that kind of ridiculous, conscious decision?

Yes, today I had two 2 twinkie-like-red velvet-cream-filled-thingies...180 calories and 10 grams of fat EACH. 4 points each of sugary poison. Yes, sugary, delicious poison, but poison all the same.

It has taken me 10 weeks to lose 15 pounds. Officially it isn't even 15 pounds, cause I gained .8 this week. I have to come up with $100 more to buy another 10 weeks to WW, and I am getting concerned that the weight isn't going to come off. It would if I were OP the whole time, but I am being loose with my eating on Saturday and Sunday, and stretching over to Monday and, apparently after today, Tuesday as well. Why am I doing this? I know that part of my problem is that I have stopped journaling. Why? It's so stupid. I know that it will help things to "click", and yet I am not doing it.

I need a good kick in the butt, so if anyone is still reading this, hop on here and help me out. Give me whatfor and help me get back to the right frame of mind please!

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Weigh In Number 8

drum roll please...

I LOST! YAY! I lost .6 pounds! That took me to 15.2 pounds gone! YAY! I got another star at WW. It felt so good to know that I managed to lose even when I expected to gain. I now have less than 10 pounds to go until my 5K and no doubt that I can do it!


Friday, May 1, 2009

Expect to gain tomorrow...

Yes, I have not had a great food week. Not only that, but I started exercising this week. Walking. In the past, the weeks that I add exercise to my days, I have had a gain at the scale. Makes no sense, but it has happened, so I am preparing myself for a gain. At least this way, if I do manage to lose, I will be surprised, LOL!

I haven't had a free for all or anything with food this week, but it has been far from perfect. I have really enjoyed adding the walking to my days though...it makes me feel so good! Well, makes me feel good AFTER! LOL...let's face it, it's the stopping after walking that makes it feel good, at least to this fat chick!

I only like .4 to hit my 15 pound mark and get another star. I would SO love to do this this week, but don't know that it is possible. No big deal though...loss or gain, I will keep on keeping on. Cause I like me these days, and this is a big part of it.

Til tomorrow!

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Weigh In Number 8

Yeah baby!




I lost 2 pounds this week! I am so excited to see this weight coming off like it is! I am only 10.6 pounds away from my 5K goal, and I have 6 weeks to get it off. I can SO do that! Knowing that I am on course to meet my goal feels so good!

Every day I am noticing something different...whether it's how much better my clothes fit to how I am eating less and making better choices. I truly do feel that this is the time it is going to work. This time I am losing the weight and feeling good.

Tomorrow is my first training walk with my WW members...if any show up! My son wants to walk with me, which is good cause he is a little chubby, and my mom is going too. I hope she goes ahead and signs up for the 5K so she knows she has to walk every day too!

At my WW meeting this week I got my 5% star. That's right...I have lost 5% of my body weight! For a lot of people 5% isn't very much...but when you start out as big as I did, that 5% is AWESOME! This week I plan to get my next 5lb star and start working toward my next big accomplishment ~ 10% gone!

Life is good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Weigh In Number 7




Another week, another 1.6 pounds down! The weight is coming off slowly, but surely.

This week at WW, we discussed the new program that WW has joined in with Active.com to promote. They want everyone to participate in a 5K! They are giving a $20 value of training activities on active.com to all WW members. This is GREAT for me, as I am already signed up for a 5K in June. The timing couldn't be more perfect. I volunteered to be a team leader to volunteer to be at a walking venue one day a week at a certain time to coordinate WW members to walk together. I don't know if anyone will show up, but it will get my butt outta the house and to the park to walk!

My goal is 2.4 pounds this week...I want to hit 15 pounds gone this week. Definitely do-able...just gotta get my water in!

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Weigh In Number 6 ~ and Happy Easter!





In my week number 6 weigh in I lost another 1.6 pounds. YAY ME! This brings me to 11 pounds.

I will be honest, just as I said in my meeting yesterday, I am a bit disappointed that the weight isn't coming off any faster than it is. I figured that with me being the size of a large whale that it would come off much quicker. (OK, an exaggeration...maybe a small whale.)
;)

That said, I know that I am not following my plan 100%. I am eating more on weekends after WI than I should, and not always getting back on track until Monday. I know that if I did it as I should, I would be losing faster.

My goal this week is to lose 2 pounds...that will put me at 5% of my total body weight gone. 5%! That's huge! Well, it's huge if you are as big as I am, LOL...

That said...yes, I talk bad about myself. Know, though, that it is all in fun, and I am smiling as I do it. Just as I refer to the clothes stores I have to shop in as "fat chick stores" or the plus size sections as "fat chick sizes"...that's just me!

Even six weeks into this, I still feel like I am going to do it this time. This is the time that I conquer my weight once and for all.

Happy Easter to all! I hope you had a wonderful day with your families...and that your extended family visiting went better than mine, LOL...I got my feelings hurt, yet again...I have to get thicker skin I guess.

Off to fold clothes and take a nap...hubby is out with the kiddos for a while this afternoon.

Until next time...

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Gastric Bypass...mixed ramblings!

I found out today that one of my oldest friends has finally, after fighting for 3 years, been approved by her insurance to have gastric bypass. Her surgery is scheduled for April 27th, just a few weeks from now. I am very happy for her, because I know that this is something that she has wanted for a long time. She, like me, has struggled with her weight for her entire life.

I know of several people who have had gastric bypass. One had it 7 or 8 years ago, lost a ton of weight, got pregnant and gained some back, but then lost it again and is still at her ideal weight. One had it several years ago, lost nowhere near what she should have, then gained every bit of it, plus more, back without ever really seeing any positive difference in her health. And two more who have lost over 150 pounds on it and are loving their new lives. A cousin of my husband even works in the office of the local bariatric surgeon, after having lost half of her body weight following the surgery.

I'm not going to lie and say that I haven't considered gastric bypass. Seriously considered it, in fact. I have gone back and forth in my mind (and on pro and con lists on paper, LOL) for years about whether I think that GB would work for me. Would I lose weight? Yes, I know I would. But would I keep it off? This is where I am not sure. Unless I am able to work through why I eat and conquer that, there is no way I could keep the weight off. And if I am able to change the way I eat in order to make the surgery a success, why can't I just go ahead and change my way of eating and lose the weight without the surgery?

For now, my insurance doesn't cover bariatric surgery, so this isn't even an option for me. However I can't swear that if it does cover it in the future that I won't look into it more seriously. In the meantime, however, I am going to keep on keeping on, and hopefully by the time this surgery becomes possible, I won't need it anymore anyway.

I don't know if you read my blog or not Alicia, but I love you girl, and wish you all the luck in the world on your new journey! I'm here if you need me for anything, and will be with you every step of the way.

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Weigh In Number 5

Alright...

I lost...

...drum roll please...

3 pounds!

Yep, that same 3 pounds that I gained last week. YAY ME! In a way I am disgusted with myself, because I am back where I was 2 weeks ago. Like this past 2 weeks was just a waste and they cancel each other out, LOL...that said, in the past it has taken me several weeks to recover from a gain like this, so the fact that I have been able to do it so quickly is a good thing.

Next week I am going to try my hardest to lose 3.6lbs. If I can do that, I will hit my 5% weight loss. For most people, this isn't a big deal, but when you are a fat chick like I am, 5% is HUGE! Just losing that amount will lower my risks for many, many diseases, not to mention high blood pressure.

Just knowing that I am making better choices with each meal makes me feel better. I truly think that my WW leader is awesome, and that makes the meetings so much better for me. I trust Angie and know that she is teaching me tools that will help me make the best decisions that I can make in my day to day life.

I am working on my low points Easter dinner contributions now...if anyone is reading this and has any ideas, please comment!

On another subject...several people have come up to me on the street this past week and mentioned that they saw my blog online and were keeping up with me and seeing how I am doing. Thank you so much, y'all! For those that don't know, my blog is linked from the site RomeNewsWire.com, and local people can keep up with me. If you see me out, definitely let me know that you are reading my blog! It makes me feel good, and helps keep me accountable to know that people are keeping an eye on my progress!

Good night, all! It's after 1am and this fat chick is tired!

Friday, April 3, 2009

Why this week was a success...

Before I even go to WI, I wanted to say why I think this week has been a success.

1.) I have had at least 48oz of water each day this week.

2.) I fixed muffins for my daughter and I didn't eat them.

3.) We hit a drive thru last night and I had a kids' meal. Great for me? No. But much better than what I would have normally gotten.

4.) I had extra cookies sitting around all week...I took one and froze the rest.

5.) My sister had a baby on April 1st. I have a beautiful new baby nephew! (this has nothing to do with WW, but I had to mention it!)

Am I saying I will lose a lot? No. I have no idea what the scale is going to do...but regardless I know I have had a good week.

:)

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Weigh In Number 4

This week I gained. But I knew that I would. And I am actually okay with that, because I know why I gained, and I went to WW anyway, even knowing that I was going to show a gain. When I have done WW in the past, if I knew I was going to have a gain, I would just skip the WI. By doing that, I was almost giving myself a pass to go another day...or two...or ten without getting back OP.

I went to my meeting, weighed in, and stayed for the meeting. My leader is so motivating, and I am feeling really good about this week. It's all good!

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Rough week...

I have NOT had a good week food-wise. What I have eaten isn't a drop in the bucket compared to what I was eating before I started WW, but I have definitely NOT been OP this week. It figures...I get within .6 of hitting my first 10 pounds gone, and screw up. It is sooo tempting to skip WI this week just so it doesn't show a gain, but then again, if I do that, it's like giving myself the rest of the week to eat crap, and that just won't work. I know how I work ~ if I give myself free reign to eat for 2 days, I will turn it into 2 weeks. Or months. Or years.

Soooo...even though I expect a gain, I am going to force myself to WI. I need to listen to my WW leader and get back in the right frame of mind. I am glad I started typing this...it helped make my decision. I am going to be OP and eat light today and tomorrow, in hopes of keeping the gain to a minimum.

GO ME! :)

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Weigh In Number 3



I am down 4 pounds this week! YAY ME! This makes up for the measly .4 I had last week. Not only that, but I was wearing blue jeans this week, unlike last week. I was also wearing flip flops and almost froze my piggies off, but ah well, that's the price I have to pay, LOL!

I had a rough weekend last week, because of the food I ate at the baby shower, which snowballed to an entire weekend of crap eating, but I caught myself and straightened up for the rest of the week.

That said, I do have to admit that I didn't eat supper last night...not on purpose though! I was working on something and didn't notice the time! By the time I got a chance to eat it was 10:30 and I was NOT about to eat something that late and have it just sitting there at WI today!

I am well on my way to my 5K goal, as you can see above! Next week I *should* hit 10 pounds gone at WW and get another star for my bookmark. YAY!

Here's to an awesome week, everyone!

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Weigh In Number 2



Alright, here it is. I want to lose 25 pounds before my 5K. It's doable. Difficult but doable. I think it will help me to have a goal, and a public one, as well. My 5K is 3 months from now...so an average of 2.5lbs a week will get me there.

On to my weight loss...yes, loss. A whole .4...not great, by any stretch of the imagination, but a loss the same. I think that may actually be because of the different pants I wore, but who cares? LOL! I know I had a good week, so I did well, even if the scale didn't show it this week.

Friday, March 13, 2009

Oh the dreaded weigh in...

As I have mentioned before, I have done WW before. Joined up probably more times than I can count. Made it past week 2 or 3 before having a bad week and refusing to go back. This week has not been hard. At all. In fact, I have pretty much flown right through it. But then I stepped up on my mother's scale a few nights ago and was back where I started the first weigh in. Yep, I was back UP 5 pounds. I know, of course, that all scales are different, and that it isn't likely that this is what the WW scale will show, but it still throws a caution flag up in the back of my mind. Am I SURE I had a good week? Did I slip in extra calories without realizing it? Am I getting up in my sleep and stuffing my face with anything I can find in the refrigerator? Or is her scale just amazingly different from the one at WW? What if I get up on that scale in the morning and the little lady just looks at the scale, nods, writes down the number and then hands me back my book? I know then that there is a gain. I don't think I can handle a gain in my 2nd week. I shouldn't have a gain in my 2nd week. I didn't realize how much it was bothering me until I started typing here...I think I really am freaked out!

I am a carb junky. Seriously I could live off of bread and potatoes. This is something that in the past I haven't really been able to cut back on...this time around, though, I find myself eating much less bread. I have gone from every single meal (and sometimes in between) to about once a day. I am not even fixing garlic bread with spaghetti anymore. And I am okay with this. Strange. But it is a change that I have needed to make for a long time...a change that I had to be right in my mind to accomplish. And I think I am there.

I just wish I was feeling some sort of difference...in my clothes, in my knees, in the mirror...just somewhere, so that I was more confident about going to WI in the morning.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

This week, my goal is...

to get at least 48oz of water down every day. I struggle with getting ANY water down on a day to day basis, and I know from my past weight loss attempts that if I get my water down I will show a good loss every week.

Why drink water? Here are a few reasons...

  • Water prevents and cures heartburn
  • Water jump starts your body (and caffeine doesn’t)
  • Water helps preserve healthy body weight
  • Water washes out toxins and other metabolic waste products
  • Besides pure water, adequate fluid replacement helps to maintain hydration
  • Women who drink more than five glasses of water a day are 41% less likely to die from a heart attack than those who drink less than two glasses.
  • Incidence of cancer in the urinary bladder is reduced significantly by a high fluid intake
  • Water is the nutrient your body needs the most. Between 55 and 75 percent of adult body weight is water.
  • Water makes your skin healthier

There are plenty of other reasons, but this is all I got right now, LOL!

Saturday, March 7, 2009

I'm a loser!

I had my weigh in this morning for my first week of weight watchers. I had a really good week, stayed in my points every day...but then yesterday I ate more than I should have. I stayed in my points, but I had more carbs than I needed and I also ate late last night, so I wasn't expecting much...so I was shocked to see I had lost
5 POUNDS!!
Yes, 5 pounds. I got my first star this week! For those not familiar with weight watchers, they give you a bookmark, and for every 5 pounds you lose, you get a star sticker to put on it. I am so happy!
I also realized tonight that it is the small steps that matter. Today was my husband's birthday and we went to eat at a The Steakhouse in Rockmart. In the past, I would have thought to myself that it was a special occasion and just eaten whatever I wanted...but tonight I didn't. They bring out breadsticks like Olive Garden's, which I did eat, and then hubby wanted potato skins...since I knew I wanted one of those, instead of getting the steak and fries I wanted, I went with the grilled chicken salad. And for the first time ever in the 15+ years we have been together, he ate more bread than I did! Whoo-hoo for me! So instead of giving in and eating whatever I wanted, I chose what I wanted the most and had it, and kept the rest of the meal low cal.
G'night everyone ~ don't forget to set your clocks forward!

Thursday, March 5, 2009

No turning back now!

OK, I typed a long entry here last night about what I was doing this week and signed on today and it's gone. Just gone. Apparently my computer ate it or something. And since I am not as inspired as I was last night, this will just be a summary of it, LOL...

OK, as for my title of this post...No turning back now...that is because I have officially registered to participate in the Cave Spring Road Race 5K run...er...for me that may be 5k walk...or 5k drag-yourself-over-the-finish-line-and-collapse...Either way, I am going to do it! I am so excited! This is something I have always said I was going to do, and now I am going to finally do it! I may be the very last person over the finish line, with even the 90-year olds passing me, but that's alright with me.

I have now been doing WW for 5 days, and I am doing really well with it. My clothes are already starting to fit better and moving around is better. I am hoping for 5 pounds this week, but not really expecting that much. We shall see! I am working on changing my eating habits...we went to El Alazan to eat Mexican last night and I did pretty good. Usually we share cheese dip and sour cream and then fajitas with multiple flour tortillas and baskets of chips (hey, they're free, right?)...last night I had a soft chicken taco. I added a little sour cream and lots of salsa...and I even kept the lettuce on the taco! (for those who know me, you know what a big deal this is!)

I will weigh in Saturday morning and come report in here. :)

Happy Day to all!

Monday, March 2, 2009

100 Reasons to Lose 100 Pounds ~ The Conclusion!

100 Reasons to Lose 100 Pounds ~ The Conclusion!
29. So that the floor in my mothers hall doesn't creak so loudly when I walk down it.
28. So that when we eat at a restaurant, the server doesn't automatically look at me and say "and what are we having for dessert?"
27. I want to be able to get a massage without being self-conscious.
26. So I can get a pedicure or manicure without being afraid that the technicians are talking about how big I am in their native language.
25. So that I can become a lifetime WW member and not have to pay for meetings anymore!
24. To step on the scale in the doctors office and not see them move the bar over to "200" automatically.
23. To have the energy to keep my house clean instead of just sitting on the couch.
22. So that I can wear the same clothes from one winter season to the next winter season.
21. To get up from the floor without grunting and grabbing a hold of something to pull myself up.
20. To determine that I do, in fact, have collarbones in there somewhere.
19. So that the inside thighs of blue jeans don't wear out before the rest of the jeans.
18. To be able to talk about wanting to run a 5K and not have people look at me the way they currently do.
17. So that the gowns at the hospital and doctors office fit me...and I only have to wear one!
16. To finally wear shorts again.
15. So I can shop in Old Navy stores instead of just online, which is the only place to buy their "plus" sized clothes.
14. To no longer have multiple "X's" on my clothing tags.
13. To not weigh the same as a 6'5 offensive lineman.
12. So that I don't weigh more than the men in my family...and they are NOT small men.
11. To jump on my husbands back without fearing I will break it.
10. So I don't have to constantly hold my stomach in so it doesn't stick out quite as far over my pants.
9. I don't want to feel like my family talks about my weight when I'm not around.
8. To wear cute, sexy Halloween costumes...when you are fat, you can be a witch or a cow.
7. So that when I sit down I don't automatically cross my arms and rest them on my stomach.
6. To be able to stand up and look straight down to see my toes or the numbers on the scale.
5. I want to feel comfortable to join a class (aerobics, belly dancing, etc).
4. I want to have awesome "before" and "after" pictures.
3. I want to grow old with my husband.
2. I want to show other overweight people that you CAN lose the weight...if I can do it anyone can!
1. For once in my life, I want to be a HOT CHICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, February 28, 2009

Happy Saturday!

I got up this morning EARLY and went to Weight Watchers! YAY ME! I am so proud...I have been trying to make myself do it for weeks. When I was a member before, I weighed in wearing the lightest clothes I could find, took off my jewelry and shoes to weigh and did everything possible to make it seem lighter. This morning, though, I weighed in in jeans and tennis shoes, so that I can wear my normal clothes each week I go. I was shocked at my weight this morning...it was BY FAR the most I have ever weighed, and I am telling myself that all scales are different, and I was wearing more clothes than I usually do...but in reality it doesn't really matter what the starting weight was. It is the last time I will be that weight, and it will show my losses just as well as one that weighed me 20 pounds lighter. So it's all good!

I was really impressed with the WW leader. I had one for years that I really liked, but she was fired a few years ago. I didn't think I would find another one that I liked, but this lady actually seemed more knowledgable, having lost 100 pounds in 2007. The people were super nice and I wasn't shy around them at all...usually I am a shy person in a group setting like that when I know very few people.

I need to go find a ticker to use for my weightloss...when I do I'll post it on here.

Have a great day everyone!

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

trying out a ticker...

I am going to put up a ticker countdown to the Cave Spring Road Race...the 5k I plan to run in. I am going to use coolrunning.com's "Couch to 5K in 5 weeks" and see how it goes.

Monday, February 23, 2009

I'm baaaaack!

Well, I made it through my weekend away. Did I make it to the workout room? No. Did I overeat while gone? No. Not that one makes up for the other, but it's definitely better than not working AND overeating. :)

I shared a room with my sister during my little weekend away, and yesterday we started talking about running. Now, I am a fat chick and fat chicks do NOT run...but it is something I have always, always, always wanted to do. A 5K has always been a dream of mine, but not a realistic one in the past. Now I find out that my sister also wants to do a 5k...now she isn't a fat chick at all, but she IS a relatively round chick, being 8 months pregnant right now. We both have some training to do, but we decided to do a 5K together...sometime after the baby is born and when I am not quite as fat a chick as I currently am.

I got online yesterday and looked for local 5K's and found one I have never heard of before...the Cave Spring Road Race. It takes place on June 13th, which is 4 months away. I don't know if that is enough time to train to be ready for it, but we are dang well gonna try! I may not be able to run the whole thing, but I firmly believe that I can get through it even if she has to drag me over the finish line. (This will be much easier for her to do if I am able to drop a few pounds before then, LOL...) I am so excited to think that I have a goal to work towards...we are going to go ahead and sign up and pay our money too, so that we can't back out.

I plan to go to my first WW meeting Saturday morning and I am so excited I can hardly wait! In four months I could lose around 30 pounds or so if I really put my mind to it, especially when mixed in with walking/running/training to run the 5K.

I can't imagine how it would feel to actually finish a 5K and cross the finish line...the thought is so foreign to me...I don't know what would feel better...finishing a 5K or accomplishing a goal I have made for myself.

I really feel like I can do it this time!

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Heading out of town for the weekend...

I am going to be in Atlanta from Friday to Sunday...eating from a Starbucks and a hotel restaurant. I am not able to plan my meals in advance, so I am just going to make the best choices I can possibly make. The hotel does have a gym, and I plan to hit the treadmill and elliptical while we are gone.

My plan is to join WW next week. I have heard a lot of good things about Thrive Weightloss and would like to try it, but I am not able to afford it.

Have you tried WW? Have you tried Thrive? What did you think? Like I said earlier, I have lost 46lbs on WW before and know it works...but what was your experience?

100 Reasons to Lose 100 Pounds (69-30)

100 Reasons to Lose 100 Pounds

69. To be able to cross my legs comfortably.
68. To swing in a swing at a playground without the sides digging into my legs.
67. To wear boots that will zip over my calves.
66. To get a haircut without worrying if it will make my face look even fatter.
65. To wear a bathing suit.
64. To be able to tie my shoes without propping my foot up on something.
63. To meet someone new without being wary that they are thinking how disgusting I am.
62. To have enough energy to keep up with my kids
61. Being able to ride a roller coaster without worrying if the bar will fit.
60. To run in a race.
59. To see the shock on peoples’ faces when they see me after losing weight.
58. Being able to keep up with other people.
57. No more stares from strangers (or random comments)
56. Feeling brave enough to speak in front of people.
55. Go to an indoor rock climbing wall and fit in the harness thingy they strap to you .
54. So I can tuck in a shirt.
53. I want to feel stronger.
52. To give my family a fighting chance of not having the same health problems as me.
51. To sleep better.
50. Being able to sit on my husbands lap.
49. Going for a run on a fall morning.
48. So I can wear a button up shirt without worrying about gaps.
47. So people won’t ask me when my baby is due.
46. Seat belts will fit properly.
45. Movie theater seats will be more comfortable.
44. To not feel like thin/healthy people are better than me.
43. So I can ride a bike again.
42. Feeling comfortable speaking to people with out having to think about what they think about me.
41. Not being so hard to move.
40. Not being called “heavy set” or “large”
39. So I can wear a sleeveless shirt.
38. So I don’t have to struggle to get up out of the floor.
37. To show my kids how to eat healthy.
36. To show my kids that playing outside is more fun than playing on the Xbox.
35. Being confident to go after things I really want in life.
34. To help my kids grow up never having to know what it feels like to be fat.
33. Learning to control my emotions rather than eat them.
32. To shop and cook healthier.
31. So my hubby’s clothes are soooo big there is no way I can wear them.
30. So I don’t sweat and look like I’ve been swimming just from walking to the mailbox.

To be continued....

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

100 Reasons to Lose 100 Pounds (79-70)

100 Reasons to Lose 100 Pounds (79-70)

79. I want to feel good about myself when I look in the mirror.

78. I want a regular bath towel to wrap around me comfortably.

77. I want to put on sweats and look cute instead of like nothing else would fit.

76. I want to be able to walk more than a block without getting winded.

75. I want to fit more comfortably behind the steering wheel. My legs are short so I have to be pulled way up!

74. So I can fit behind the desks in my kids' classroom. (right, Christina? LOL!)

73. So I can comfortably paint my toe nails.

72. So I can wrestle with my sons and not worry about squishing them!

71. I want to be able to slide on the enclosed slides on playgrounds.

70. So I can turn cartwheels again.

To be continued...

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

100 Reasons to Lose 100 Pounds (89-80)

100 Reasons to Lose 100 Pounds


89. So I never have to hear the term "morbidly obese" pertaining to myself.


88. So my clothes aren't so big they could double as a tent.


87. So I don't get diabetes.


86. I don't want to be the fattest person in my family anymore.


85. I want to buy clothes in a regular store.


84. I want to learn Victoria's Secret!


83. I want to like my outside as much as I like my inside.


82. So I will want to have my picture taken.


81. So people will want to take my picture.


80. To not worry if my shirt shows a bit of my stomach.


To be continued...



100 Reasons to Lose 100 Pounds (100-90)

100 Reasons to Lose 100 Pounds
100. I want to know what I look like with only one chin.
99. To not have to worry about whether I will fit in a booth at a restaurant.
98. So that I don't embarrass my children. School is hard enough without having a fat mom.
97. To wear low waisted jeans.
96. To go jogging with my boys.
95. So I never have to step foot in Lane Bryant again.
94. So my daughter will want to look like me.
93. So I never have to hear "you have such a pretty face..." again.
92. So no one will recognize me at my next high school reunion.
91. To not be the token fat chick in any given situation.
90. Because I want to live to see my grandchildren and great-grandchildren.
To be continued...

Monday, February 16, 2009

About me...

I am a 32 year old mother of three. I have been married to the love of my life for 13 years this year. I am a stay at home mom (SAHM). I have issues keeping a clean house. I have great eyes and hair.

And I am a fat chick.

Of everything I am, good and bad, being a fat chick is what people see when they look at me. They don't see that I am a wonderful mother, or that I could be a great friend to them...they see that I am a fat chick. And I am ready for that to change.

My husband and I have both needed to lose weight for a long time, but a few months ago during routine testing, my husband was diagnosed with high blood pressure, high cholesterol and off the charts triglycerides (over 600 ~ normal is below 200.) Weight loss used to be just a vanity issue, but now it is a health issue. It is no longer an option, but a necessity.

Seven years ago, I joined Weight Watchers and lost 46 pounds...then something happened and in the blink of an eye I had gained back 60 pounds. So here I sit now, needing to lose over 100 pounds to be even close to my ideal weight. DH (dear husband) needs to lose 80-90 pounds. I plan to re-join WW and bring what I learn back home to him.

I plan to use this blog for accountability...to talk about my feelings as I struggle with losing, then maintaining my weight, to share and review recipes and healthier choices at local restaurants.

Please feel free to share recipes or comment...I have a long journey ahead of me!