Sunday, May 31, 2009

It's gonna be a good week, tater...

drum roll please....

daddaddadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadada

I lost 3 pounds this week! YAY ME! This puts me at 19.4 pounds lost. It has taken me a while to lose it, but hopefully that means I will be more likely to keep it off. This is the first week that I really feel that I am losing weight. It feels really good.
:)

We are down to less than 2 weeks until the 5K...again I am just hoping I can finish it! I don't walk fast, and can't run much...so I may end up walking alone, but I guess that's ok too. I don't want to slow down the group that is walking with me.

Next week I plan to get my 20 pound star...I am not going to be able to hit the 25 pound goal by the race that I had set for myself, but I will come pretty close I think.

I am already planning to sign up for the 1st Annual Turkey Trot in Rome, GA for this November. I plan to be 50 pounds down and wearing a L shirt by then. Definitely do-able...30 pounds in 5 months. :)

Here's to a great week, all around!

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Update on me. :)

I just realized that I never came in and reported how my WI went last week. After how upset I was over my eating, I somehow managed a .2 loss! Yes, a loss. I can only figure it one way...the previous week I was up when I should've been down. That good week must've caught up with the bad week and turned it around for me.

This has been a really good week, and I am feeling really good. Walked Mon and Tue so far, hoping to walk tonight too. I am beginning to doubt whether I can make my 5K or not...I am struggling to keep up with my mother when we walk and can barely make it 2 miles, and THAT takes 40 minutes! I dread being the last person to cross the finish line at the race...but I guess finishing last is still finishing, right?

Friday, May 15, 2009

I'm going to own it.

I have had a crap week. I have already gone into this. My plan has been to go to WW in the morning and use a "no weigh in" pass. Get back on track and weigh next week. I have thought long and hard about it and finally decided that I HAVE to get up on that scale in the morning. I have to see what damage I caused this week. Otherwise I'm afraid it might be too easy for me to decide that I didn't do *that* bad this week, and start next week the same way. This way, I know what I did and how it effects me.

I chose to eat. I chose to eat crap. I have to own that.

Just hoping it's not too bad!

Still struggling...but still here!

I swear this has been the week from hell for me! I have eaten crap every single day. But you know why I have eaten crap? Because I BOUGHT crap! I am obviously not at the point that I can have so-called "treats" in my house and resist them. I am going to have to get back to basics and just push forward.

I am going to go to my WW meeting tomorrow, though I am not going to weigh-in. I need the motivation that my wonderful leader offers, without the self-disgust that will come with a gain that I know I caused and could have prevented.

Gotta go to the store and get apples and oranges and better for me stuff later today.

It's a great day to start again!

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

What am I doing?!

Okay, I am at that point. You know the one...it's where you decide that the weight is coming off so slowly and it's okay to go ahead and eat crap. Why on earth would anyone with a lick of sense make that kind of ridiculous, conscious decision?

Yes, today I had two 2 twinkie-like-red velvet-cream-filled-thingies...180 calories and 10 grams of fat EACH. 4 points each of sugary poison. Yes, sugary, delicious poison, but poison all the same.

It has taken me 10 weeks to lose 15 pounds. Officially it isn't even 15 pounds, cause I gained .8 this week. I have to come up with $100 more to buy another 10 weeks to WW, and I am getting concerned that the weight isn't going to come off. It would if I were OP the whole time, but I am being loose with my eating on Saturday and Sunday, and stretching over to Monday and, apparently after today, Tuesday as well. Why am I doing this? I know that part of my problem is that I have stopped journaling. Why? It's so stupid. I know that it will help things to "click", and yet I am not doing it.

I need a good kick in the butt, so if anyone is still reading this, hop on here and help me out. Give me whatfor and help me get back to the right frame of mind please!

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Weigh In Number 8

drum roll please...

I LOST! YAY! I lost .6 pounds! That took me to 15.2 pounds gone! YAY! I got another star at WW. It felt so good to know that I managed to lose even when I expected to gain. I now have less than 10 pounds to go until my 5K and no doubt that I can do it!


Friday, May 1, 2009

Expect to gain tomorrow...

Yes, I have not had a great food week. Not only that, but I started exercising this week. Walking. In the past, the weeks that I add exercise to my days, I have had a gain at the scale. Makes no sense, but it has happened, so I am preparing myself for a gain. At least this way, if I do manage to lose, I will be surprised, LOL!

I haven't had a free for all or anything with food this week, but it has been far from perfect. I have really enjoyed adding the walking to my days though...it makes me feel so good! Well, makes me feel good AFTER! LOL...let's face it, it's the stopping after walking that makes it feel good, at least to this fat chick!

I only like .4 to hit my 15 pound mark and get another star. I would SO love to do this this week, but don't know that it is possible. No big deal though...loss or gain, I will keep on keeping on. Cause I like me these days, and this is a big part of it.

Til tomorrow!